Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Do you remember?

Whenever you cross my mind, I think about how I've changed. I've changed, or maybe I've just been able to be more of me, even when "me" will forever be a work in progress. I just want to be able to be comfortable in my own skin again. =)

Life's ever-changing kaleidoscope, and the only constant is Him.

I feel like time won't wait, neither would life. Can't seem to think too much about the tomorrows, but to make full use of the now. Hmm...How should I put it. I've always thought that I got the airy-fairy dreamer and the grounded reality self each from mum and dad. I guess that makes me a dreamer at heart but not forgetting to live in the now. Maybe, it's about making the world, my world, the dream so it's real.

Ah I don't make sense again when I think aloud lol. This constant fatigue and sien-ness is driving me nutty. Plus the drama. I believe I myself must be subconsciously attracting myself to drama. Sigh. The Secret has somehow messed my head for a day. -_- I sort of knew too much free time and free money would not bode well for a Gemini like me, I guess now I know it really does make you feel like you're wasting your life away when nothing you're doing seems productive or fulfilling to you.

Must learn to jump much more easily! Hwaiting! Remind self about the bigger possibilities, and to not have fear!

*smacks self* I think I just need sleep.



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posted by pesky @ 9:45 am

Friday, October 16, 2009

Of silver snowflakes and golden bells!

And the magical feeling in the air! 8D

YES! I am in a full-blown Christmas mood that has been brewing for a few weeks now. WIth Christmas carols being played in the cool, quiet morning....omo...I feel like a kid all over again dreaming xD. Work? What work? It's Christmas in the aiiirrrrr....

Yes I can tell I'm out of it and a bit disconnected. xDD *twirls a bit in head*

Just got a cute beanie too yesterday! Now I just need to get my jacket, luggage bag, batteries, "borrow" memory card unless I miraculously have extra cash to get another one, and wash my sport shoes! Sneakers will have to be bought later. *cough* I is the broke but spending too much on too many things.

Now to contemplate to go or not to go....*drums fingers* Eunhae!!

Off to bask in imaginary Christmas in my head. Maybe it's coz it's Friday too. 8D Gawd I should be getting things done....



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posted by pesky @ 11:21 am

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Light.

I asked God before for a guide, and I got you. I learnt a lot more now, and I should thank you. He truly sends us angels and guides when we need them. The things we learn from those who walk in for awhile and inspires us, or shares a thought, or those that stay; they're all footprints and lesson learnt. Maybe in fact, we're all somebody's angel and somebody's lesson.



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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Courage.

=) She's leaving and it's confirmed, and today she's wearing a necklace so GD/2NE1 style I feel like going T__T I waaannntttt toooo.

The one thing I admire most about you? Your ability to up and leave and chase the things that makes you happy. The kind of ability to not fear and be able to walk your way, it's a kind of courage. That's probably the best thing I've learnt from you.

Remember at the beginning I said there's something I want here that's not done yet. I think I've found my answer now. =) This time it's not as stressful or as frustrating, mostly contemplative and having to remind myself what courage to take the first step is.

It's still fun here, having another person move over. But I know my path leads elsewhere now.

A curious thing though... You love production and have always done it, whilst event isn't really your thing. Yet event is what I've done and I can safely say love, so somehow we should be pretty good together. Part of me feels like saying take me with you, coz it's so much more fun. But I know the things I've to do for myself.

Ah.. well. Shall update the BFFs, belated emails. ><

And a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE POH!!!!

Bila balik, apa mau for your present?? I feed your Tam Chiak enough la can hahahahhahaahaha. <3

It's a sign of old age when birthday wishes become one-liners and there's no squealing and cakes... Or maybe we're just missing out. xD There will come a day when it'll be yo, happy birthday man. Let's go eat. HAHAHAHAHHAA.

Xue'll be the first to smack us all for being so un-happening.

Ah.. Life. Have mountain of work to do, in danger of busting deadline, and a list of pending things to do that I haven't even skimmed the top of. Someone smack me already.

***************************

Oh, random tarot card quiz thingy Farah shared. =) Here's mine.

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.



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posted by pesky @ 1:27 pm

Monday, October 12, 2009

Glass.

It's one of those moments feeling like you want to cry without stopping, but it's stuck somewhere in your chest.

It hurts still; sometimes it confuses more than it's painful. But it's undeniable that it's still a shard.

All I feel like doing sometimes is breaking these glass walls and just screaming until I've no voice left. Cry the hidden tears that never went away.

God told me to let go of these chains, yet all I did was lay them down. Too afraid of being exposed and vulnerable when I already am. Too afraid to empty all these out.

You'll never understand when(if) I won't tell. How can I, when I've yet to lay it all in front of Him.

-- I blame it on moments in a month where it's more emotionally volatile, and harder to hide.


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posted by pesky @ 2:45 pm

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Relieved.

=') So it didn't turn out bad. Still a teeny bit scared, but it's ok. Part of the learning process. Life isn't devoid of doubts and obstacles.

*hug* Ah, I think I'm contented enough right now. =)


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Friday, October 09, 2009

Movies 2010

Before that, I just wanted to note that the Twilight saga seriously sucks b****. Pardon the language but urgh... -__- Robert Pattinson canNOT act, and the girl who plays Bella? There are moments she's ok and the rest wtf. Heck even Alice isn't reflective of the book either. What more when the books sucked in the first place. *ranty*

Saw New Moon's trailer, and I really thought it had potential to be a good movie (screw the book). But... Looking at it, it seems it's really going to end up with horribly boring flat parts. -__-

Two movies that seem to be promising (but only out next year) seems to be Inception and Cirque du Freak. Inception's looking at a whole A-list cast, while Cirque's probably up Jzune's and Mish's alley. ^^ Story doesn't look any interesting so far. Off to watch the trailer to see if it's any good.

P.S. Farah-chan, Inception has Joseph Gordon-Levitt too HAAHHA ^^

*****

Hmm Inception's trailer's too short to tell if it's good.

Cirque's looking ok, hmm but looking like it could be run of the mill too. Jzune! Can go dig out the books and see if they're good. =)

Other movies am looking at : Alice in Wonderland, The Princess & The Frog,



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Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Xing Xing

The more I have you as a friend, the more I think I can understand it better. Maybe you're part of the things that would help me clear the rumination.

Still find it amusing though, being in this position knowing how it feels to treat you like "nothing" while you have stalker fans. Being able to snort when others are too gleeful to have a photo and I have you as a friend instead.

Blah. Now I sound weird. LOL. I guess it's just I'm feeling super amused somehow, and yeah mulling that maybe this helps with me in my over-thinking over something else. -_-

Think I killed Poh's braincells btw. LOL.




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posted by pesky @ 9:14 pm

Wishes.

Sometimes...

I'm scared of wishes/dreams coming true.
Because I'm afraid I won't be able to handle them, and break under it instead.

Sometimes it's nearly terrifying, wondering.

Do you think you'd understand what I mean?

I wonder if the fear holds you back, what's wrong or right, or if strength will prevail.


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posted by pesky @ 7:36 pm

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Shrinking Clothes!

Omg, I was digging through my drawers and wardrobe for suitable clothes to wear this Sat for Nov's wedding reception and got two surprises, as expected everytime I dig through forgotten stuff.

One, you get the nice surprise when clothes you forgot you had turns up.

Two, it then gets not so nice when you hold them up and realize......

They've shrunk!!!!

That! Or I choose to believe that we DID use to wear mere hankerchiefs, were more shameless back then (grown some decency now *cough), and just didn't realize they were that tiny. Or maybe they really did shrink.... =(

*denial* Don't believe I suddenly grew that much bigger. ><

*cough*

Had a good day out anyway! =) Looking forward to Sat when we're all dressed up and attending the first wedding~ Looking forward to good memories, great photos and a happy time. ^^


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Every day in every way I learn something new.

I'm still discovering new things about myself, people and the world. This is a place I throw my thoughts and ramblings out, so sometimes things don't make sense or get melodramatic.

Read at own risk. =)

Likes: Pretty things, blue, flowers, bears, sleep, food.
Dislikes: Too many to list. Do note I do suffer from partial OCD-ness, therefore does not like people meddling personal items much. ><

WISHLIST 2009:
Materialistic things
Meet Nic!
Teru Teru Bozu <3
Temari
Chunky accessories
Small Shoulder Bag
Big Shoulder Bag
Jeans
Slacks
3/4 Pants
Shorts
Various tops
T-shirts
Dress(es)
Jacket for HK trip
Sneakers
More sandals -_-
Slippers
Wallet
Laptop
Luggage Bag
mp3 player

External Hard Disk
TVXQ! 2nd photobook
TVXQ! 3rd photobook
TVXQ! History in Japan Vol.3
THSK T Live Tour DVD
Tohoshinki Secret Code Live DVD
All About DBSK 3
Big Bang 1st Concert DVD
Big Bang 2nd Concert DVD
Big Bang Global Warning Tour DVD
Big Bang Big Show DVD
GD Heartbreaker album
FT Island 1st Concert DVD
FT Island Colorful Sensibility + repackaged
FT Island Rock Prince Concert DVD
Super Junior Boys in the City photobook
Super Junior Vol.3
Go for SJ concert
Go for BB's concert
Watch Toho Live

Life's List
Grad Trip
Singapore Trip
Trip to Korea (shopping and stalking)
Trip to Japan (cherry blossoms and shopping)
Trip to Hong Kong (sightseeing and shopping)
Visit cousins in London/Chicago
Attend an orchestra
Learn to play the er hu
Be in a studio
Experience filming once
Own a house
Own a mini library (music/books/etc)
To experience a concert put together from scratch until end
Live Life

If you find a job you like, you never have to work a day in your life - Confucius
[True for my first two jobs]
   
School Friends
Debra
Jo Ann
Li Shan
Poh Yen
Sherry
Wen Teng
Xue

KK/CI Friends
Arfah
Jess
Jzune
Lyndy
Lyndy (cy)
Mishie
Mish (cy)
Moon
N'war
Nic
Nov
Shu
Shu (cy)

Others
Aud
Barry
Kenny Sia
Suet
XiaXue

Mine
LJ
myspace

NOVEL/STORIES/ETC
HistoryOfMagic
Artorius

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