All I want...
Right now, is for the upcoming (complete) group meet up to be... well, complete. I hope it'll be complete and it'll be fun. I hope it would be a lot of things, and I hope this is where we'll have our group photo finally. Because the last and only one we have of our current group is blurry.
I hope we'll look good maybe, even if we're not at our best.
I've complained almost everywhere else, might as well say it here. Heaven knows how hard it is to get people together, what more to have them on the same page as you. And with every meet up, it feels like everyone has an expiry date. You have 2 down, 3 to go more meetings with person A before you use up all available dates in a year, then too bad too sad, they can't make it for the next group one when person C is available, because they've already seen your mug the past 5 times.
Am I ranting?
Maybe. Am physically tired today, past week, past days. Do I have things pent up? Maybe. But where do I even start with myself to unravel them.
Am doing better now. We'll have a sad goodbye, but I feel things coming to a close this time. Will we remain friends, or rather, are we meant to be? We'll see. I think again, maybe, I will.
But back to the pressing thing in front of me. Slumber parties, staking out a hotel room, "candlelight" talks/pillow talk, call it what you like. Camp, a get-together, a vacation? If we tried to track back, I will safely say it's been years I've been attempting any of these "bigger" and seemingly "impossible" (as what I've either been told, or hinted at) events/outings/meet-ups.
WILL we have it? Anytime soon without someone ffk-ing us. Without some twist of fate that makes us cancel. Without any one not thinking, this time, let's MAKE it happen. Coz I'm tired of trying to reassure myself, or BE the one reassuring myself, because by right I shouldn't even be facing the same issues now.
The hardest part or the irony of it?
It's not even like I don't trust any of you. I've never known better that it's exactly every single one of you I want that true forever with, the real meaning of bffs and sisterhood. And our oft said words of, to be there at each others' weddings.
It's just a wish I've had for a long time.
I hope we'll look good maybe, even if we're not at our best.
I've complained almost everywhere else, might as well say it here. Heaven knows how hard it is to get people together, what more to have them on the same page as you. And with every meet up, it feels like everyone has an expiry date. You have 2 down, 3 to go more meetings with person A before you use up all available dates in a year, then too bad too sad, they can't make it for the next group one when person C is available, because they've already seen your mug the past 5 times.
Am I ranting?
Maybe. Am physically tired today, past week, past days. Do I have things pent up? Maybe. But where do I even start with myself to unravel them.
Am doing better now. We'll have a sad goodbye, but I feel things coming to a close this time. Will we remain friends, or rather, are we meant to be? We'll see. I think again, maybe, I will.
But back to the pressing thing in front of me. Slumber parties, staking out a hotel room, "candlelight" talks/pillow talk, call it what you like. Camp, a get-together, a vacation? If we tried to track back, I will safely say it's been years I've been attempting any of these "bigger" and seemingly "impossible" (as what I've either been told, or hinted at) events/outings/meet-ups.
WILL we have it? Anytime soon without someone ffk-ing us. Without some twist of fate that makes us cancel. Without any one not thinking, this time, let's MAKE it happen. Coz I'm tired of trying to reassure myself, or BE the one reassuring myself, because by right I shouldn't even be facing the same issues now.
The hardest part or the irony of it?
It's not even like I don't trust any of you. I've never known better that it's exactly every single one of you I want that true forever with, the real meaning of bffs and sisterhood. And our oft said words of, to be there at each others' weddings.
It's just a wish I've had for a long time.
posted by pesky @ 12:20 pm
