Thursday, November 19, 2009

Rant.

SMS-ed 3 people, and ALL three never replied. Even after 4 hours. Msg-ed one twice even, still no sound.

Feel like pulling a thorough disappearing act just to emo by self.

Even if I wanted to curse or blame it on my HP network, I can't. Because Mag replied to my msg seconds later.

Irritated, annoyed and edgy frustrated now with the feeling of not wanting to sleep, but too tired to entertain the thoughts in my head.

Too lazy to raise pen, too annoyed to bother typing out thoughts into words.

In short; plain irritated and a tad of being angry at self.

At least I didn't emo ranty sms or else I would've pulled hair. Not any of them are even online much/lately. Bugger.


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posted by pesky @ 10:59 pm

Slow reinvention

I feel like burrowing again and just shutting off for awhile. ><

Think I'll be doing another short hiatus or something.

Sort of going a little crazy again.



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posted by pesky @ 4:02 pm

Remnants

I thought I wanted to say a few things, then decided I don't. If only the pen and paper was as easy as typing. All the unused handwriting time has made my fingers lethargic 'til they don't know how to write eligibly, what more journal entries that go on for pages.


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posted by pesky @ 12:19 pm

Oh nostalgic feelings~

There is an invitation to a tea session for all alumni as well as a reunion/Christmas/New Year gathering for our high school.

Definitely sounds interesting, and I think I should get out more~

But I want someone to go with meeee.... =(

Ah.. Memories. Has it been so long? Amazing looking back.



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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Guilty ><

Bosses can really make me feel extra guilty. >< Been procrastinating, and basically feeling lethargic and not wanting to pull butt up.

So when ah boss suddenly came up looked at me seriously a minute ago, and asked, haven't I started looking yet? My brain went oh no, crap, err.....*image of fel hibernating for a month* I don't think the answer "errr....waiting?" is a good enough answer.

*cringe*

MUST send out my email(s) today. >< People who are genuinely concerned makes me feel worse, more so when I know it's me who's not actually MOVING. ><!! T-T

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[4.20pm]

The mad dog barks again. Things like threats, police reports, immaturity should not be foreign to me by now. Deja vu anyone?

By right, I suppose this shouldn't be familiar to me.

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I think one more time ah boss comes to me looking concerned and asking if I've started moving my butt.... >< I'm going to cringe. These random guilty stabs and cringes are not doing me any good. >< Sigh... Now I feel bad for him instead.



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posted by pesky @ 12:09 pm

The mamak uncle...

I came to office early, as usual, and was the one to open up the office, as usual. The only thing was, when I stepped out of the lift, there was a mamak uncle standing in front of our shut doors with teh tarik and food in hand, staring at the door as though it would magically open. o_o

So.... Feeling slightly confused and mildly wondering if he was a parang-wielding man in disguise... I started to ask whose order were those, because there is noone in the office.

...Which resulted in me spending the next couple of minutes REPEATING "tak ada orang di dalam".... Like over and OVER and he just stared at me blankly going "uh. uh." like he understood. -____________________-"

After going in repeated circles with me wondering if I really am dealing with someone who either a) is mute b) does not understand a single word I say, I pointed out to him the office number WAS wrong anyway compared to his slip of paper. Voila! All I got from him was a surprised expression, and a oh! AND THEN, continued staring at me while I attempt to open the locks and NOT feeling comfortable having some dude looking like he was going to barge in the office with me alone and his teh tarik galore.

Finally after MORE persuading slash hear me get annoyed to ask him to go pergi tanya boss awak he FINALLY went off in what I can only call a blank daze.

Banana.

Why are there so many weird, damn weird, blur people around this place. Not to mention the EXTRA annoying donk here. -____- I should not curse.

Bananas.



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posted by pesky @ 9:02 am

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Overcrowded.

When overwhelmed
and feeling overcrowded;
I take a step back...
breathe.
Open your eyes,
then open again.
Close...
and close them again.

Words... Sometimes they do no justice for the heart.
Heart... Sometimes they get too weak.
God... Sometimes it's all you need to feel whole.

Silence,
is at most times the best option.


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posted by pesky @ 3:02 pm

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
...Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

- Rudyard Kipling



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posted by pesky @ 4:19 pm

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

What does your HEARTbeat for?

-- Hope

I wonder will this hurt ever be gone and resolved.
Wonder if the house be rebuilt.
If forgiveness comes to me;
for much is for me to forgive, and me to be forgiven.

Loveholics - Pain



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posted by pesky @ 2:00 pm

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Random

I wish things were simpler again somehow.
Back when standing together we only had smiles.
Back when I didn't have to wonder how the human heart can survive so much...

There is a line in a book I read yesterday, The Adoration of Jenna Fox - Mary E. Pearson (which, actually does open a lot of questions for debate) that goes something like this : you're the pieces that fill other people's holes, but not yours.

Hmm...

Empathy as a gift can also be a weary one at times; but as with everything else, there's nothing that should be regretted.



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posted by pesky @ 6:59 pm

Don't buy Vista Security
Next Page
Every day in every way I learn something new.

I'm still discovering new things about myself, people and the world. This is a place I throw my thoughts and ramblings out, so sometimes things don't make sense or get melodramatic.

Read at own risk. =)

Likes: Pretty things, blue, flowers, bears, sleep, food.
Dislikes: Too many to list. Do note I do suffer from partial OCD-ness, therefore does not like people meddling personal items much. ><

WISHLIST 2009:
Materialistic things
Meet Nic!
Teru Teru Bozu <3
Temari
Chunky accessories
Small Shoulder Bag
Big Shoulder Bag
Jeans
Slacks
3/4 Pants
Shorts
Various tops
T-shirts
Dress(es)
Jacket for HK trip
Sneakers
More sandals -_-
Slippers
Wallet
Laptop
Luggage Bag
mp3 player

External Hard Disk
TVXQ! 2nd photobook
TVXQ! 3rd photobook
TVXQ! History in Japan Vol.3
THSK T Live Tour DVD
Tohoshinki Secret Code Live DVD
All About DBSK 3
Big Bang 1st Concert DVD
Big Bang 2nd Concert DVD
Big Bang Global Warning Tour DVD
Big Bang Big Show DVD
GD Heartbreaker album
FT Island 1st Concert DVD
FT Island Colorful Sensibility + repackaged
FT Island Rock Prince Concert DVD
Super Junior Boys in the City photobook
Super Junior Vol.3
Go for SJ concert
Go for BB's concert
Watch Toho Live

Life's List
Grad Trip
Singapore Trip
Trip to Korea (shopping and stalking)
Trip to Japan (cherry blossoms and shopping)
Trip to Hong Kong (sightseeing and shopping)
Visit cousins in London/Chicago
Attend an orchestra
Learn to play the er hu
Be in a studio
Experience filming once
Own a house
Own a mini library (music/books/etc)
To experience a concert put together from scratch until end
Live Life

If you find a job you like, you never have to work a day in your life - Confucius
[True for my first two jobs]
   
School Friends
Debra
Jo Ann
Li Shan
Poh Yen
Sherry
Wen Teng
Xue

KK/CI Friends
Arfah
Jess
Jzune
Lyndy
Lyndy (cy)
Mishie
Mish (cy)
Moon
N'war
Nic
Nov
Shu
Shu (cy)

Others
Aud
Barry
Kenny Sia
Suet
XiaXue

Mine
LJ
myspace

NOVEL/STORIES/ETC
HistoryOfMagic
Artorius

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